I have to say - lately, it feels like a heavy weight is looming around. It just feels like there is such an attack on my church family & our church in general & it just feels like its been coming to a volcanic eruption lately. What does that do to me - make me worry! I am a worrier. I know I'm not SUPPOSE to, but I can't help it.
What's going on? Well - let's name a few.....Our church just sadly lost our senior minister who resigned this past Sunday. It was hard to see an awesome man leave. My husband is fighting his panic attacks which has us visiting emergency rooms at a spur of a moment now because it feels like his life is ending. I have friends who are facing huge decisions in life right now, whether it be a career, or relationships or finances or where God is calling them - so many heavy things. There are kids in the youth that are being faced with major decisions and some of them are striving while others are failing & it just breaks my heart. Finances are becoming such a burden lately with the economy & the stress of finances alone can tear someone up. Our girls are spread out across the country & the closeness that was there is gone as they've grown up. I'm telling you - Satan will attack in any way possible right now.
But something keeps sticking out to me. Its funny because I love my blog buddies & there are some amazing Christian women out there with lots of wonderful things to say & I honestly kept running across the same scripture on many of the same blogs - & then in Bible Studies that I would read daily & this same verse, over & over again comes up.....God saying something?
John 13:7 "Jesus replied, "You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand"
WOW - that just hits me in every area where I don't understand what's going on. Talk about trust & faith. I can look at every situation that I mentioned above & even more that I didnt even put down & remember - GOD IS IN CONTROL! I dont have to understand right now because God is working out HIS plan & that's all that matters. And He never said it would be easy - just that we love & trust him through it all.
In the meantime - I think I need some luxurious yarn to knit away my worries.....hey - we all deal with it in different ways! :-)