Yesterday was the big day... the results of my scans.
I have to give myself a high five for keeping my nerves in check all day. It must be noted that I get nervous to walk into a doctor's office to pick up a prescription at the front counter... doctor's office freak me out. Full of sick people... full of germs... full of bad news.
I want to thank my work for putting off moving our computers forward where I had to do a whole years worth of fixed assets update in one day. Keeping your mind busy helps with nerves. I'll remember that.
|The key to not getting stressed out|
I get to the doctor & I literally can't even sit down in the waiting room. Why?
1. I see all the germs on the seats from where sick people have been (I am ate up - I know this)
2. I had such nervous energy
3. Hey, let's get those FitBit step count up by pacing.
The nurse calls me back & as we walk in, she shuts the door behind me & says, "Well, I guess you heard your scans were all OK...."...
WHAT? My heart is leaping. No... no one called & told me... is this really surprising with the way this doctor's office has worked so far?
I told her no, I didn't know that & then she said, "Yep, everything is fine.... Oh.... wait a second...............................................".... & then nothing.........her looking at my records
My eyes were the size of half dollars & I finally said, "Don't tell me OH ... Wait a second... & then not tell me what you are looking at or for!!!"
She laughed & said, "Oh no honey - everything is fine. I'm just looking at measurements of your organs."
Well, I'm glad she found that so dang funny....
& wouldn't words other then "Oh... wait a second" have been more appropriate.
It's no wonder my blood pressure was 145/85....
The doctor came in & told me that everything looked perfect. Not even a sign of a fatty liver which is common for someone my age, & with someone my weight (shut up)... hey, at least I have a skinny persons liver. HA! I always say I have small wrists. Now I'll add I have a skinny liver to that.
|Don't pass judgment.... there could be a skinny liver in there :)|
But my pancreas looked great, my kidneys look perfect, & even the arteritis flowing to it all are flowing perfectly - no blockages anywhere.
& then she told me they had actually checked for bone cancer as well - she told me that was her fear with this pain & the worst case scenario.
SAY WHAT?!?!? Bone cancer? ... We just watched our dog suffer for 8 months with bone cancer. All I can say is THANK YOU JESUS I didn't even know she was checking for that. I wouldn't have even been able to function with that news.
But all is well....
The down side....She put me on the table & pressed on my side & mercy, goodness gracious, give me strength, dear Lord... the PAIN!!!!
Still as fresh as the first day. It literally brought tears to my eyes.
She told me that we have now checked all the internal organs so she doesn't feel like its anything serious. She then felt my back muscles & said that it feels like the muscles on that side of my back are sticking out further then the other side... & she said she honestly feels like my body is out of alignment. Especially my ribs. Somehow twisted. & if they are pulling out of alignment, she said those muscles that are connected - those intercostal muscles - are being pulled the wrong direction, laying on nerves & bone in the wrong direction. She said that would explain why none of the strong anti-inflammatory medicine hasn't helped at all.
So, she's sending me to a chiropractor. I will say, that's why I love going to a DO instead of a MD. They think more 'alternative' & out of the box - not more of the path of medicine & surgery.
She did say that if none of the adjustments work in a few months with that, then we'll do an MRI & then maybe we will have to see if something needs to be surgically adjusted .... let's not even think of that path. I'm putting hope in the idea that adjustments are going to work.
I'm just so thrilled that nothing internal is going on. I was so fearful.
But I walked back into the office after work with my hands in the air & said to my co-worker, "I'M GOING TO LIVE"... that's how I felt all day yesterday... & today... & I'm sure tomorrow.
I'm going to live with pain apparently... but I'm going to live.
I mentioned yesterday on Instagram that I'm really going to try to learn what God is telling me or showing me about this pain. He always has a lesson in everything... He REALLY must be trying to make a point with me & this. The pain is 2 months old on Sunday (geez) ... but as long as its nothing serious, I can learn to live with pain. Don't we all do that anyways.
So I'm going into the weekend one happy girl...
& I seriously want to thank so many of you all for the texts, messages, emails... the sweet words of assurance & prayers & good vibes. I loved opening up my inbox & seeing words that were telling me that "I know its going to be fine"... "Have faith about it all"... "God has got this".... I am surrounded by so many amazing people. People that I know are faithful in prayer & abounding in encouragement. I have been blessed.
Happy Friday everyone!!!!