& you may have noticed, I havent been posting on here for Training Tuesday.
Yes, I am still training. No, I dont give up easily.
& yes, I am feeling like BLAH in it this time around.
It's funny because I'm the kinda gal that loves structure - NEEDS a schedule in my life.
When I'm on vacation at work, I even feel a little off. & if my days dont go to the usual time schedule, I always feel like someone has pulled the rug out from underneath me. It's just who I am. Chalk it up to some sort of ADD, ADHD, OCD, or even AC/DC (ROCK ON)...
But I do love having my calendar full of 16 weeks of working out.
It usually motivates me. Gets me excited. Gets me PUMPED UP!!!! ...Hence the AC/DC comment.
This time around? I'm struggling. Hard core.
I think it all started because I was just 3 weeks in when the stomach flu hit me. & as I mentioned, I haven't felt the best ever since.
My runs are slower. .... which let's get real, I didnt even know they could get slower. I'm pretty sure a 95 year old person using a walker could pass me at this point.
My body just feels tight.... truth - I haven't done my yoga like I wanted to since the stomach flu either, so a month of no stretching.
My muscle tone is gone .... I havent been keeping up with the cross training like I usually do either so all that toned up muscle I had from Hammer & Chisel. Yeah... a distant memory. That's gonna hurt on 13.1 race day when my thighs are crying for mercy.
My energy is just zapped.... my motivation feels fizzled... I'm just blah.
Ricky... the man who never even attended any of my first few year races because he thought it was stupid to pay good money to run on a road that is open 364 days & 22 hours a year... that same guy. He's learned to love the races too. Not because he races. If he 'raced' - he'd win his age division every time. No doubt in my mind. The dude was made to run.
But he sticks with me. He says he has fun just 'hanging out with me'
How cute is it that he calls doing 3.1 or 6.2 or 10 miles or 13.1 miles "hanging out"... it is pretty leisure to him to do those miles.
while I'm huffing & puffing & trying not to curse him out for doing it so easily.
... but I can knit easily & take pictures easily. I have my things too I can do. ... some things just aren't as easy for one person as they are someone else.
|we still need these shirts... seriously...|
It's kinda my favorite thing about running too #thatsloveforyou #Runforcarbs
All of this to say... I'm still going. Still trying. Still trying to find my mojo.
Side note - I did watch Austin Powers: The Spy who Shagged me the other day. I get it Austin. I relate. My mojo feels like a Fat B****rd has taken it too.
I'm just hoping in the end, I'll be just like Mr. Powers & I'll find out I had it all along.