I CONFESS....
... I can't believe its been a week since Michael has left us. It feels like its been forever since I saw him in the hospital.... but also feels like seconds ago that we heard the news there was nothing else they could do. #timeplayswithemotions
... I was so nervous about the funeral home Michael was in because it was new, but they were so kind & accommodating with us... & the best part? Separate kitchens for the families. #geniusidea
... it was nice to see Michael's friends from back to high school come & visit. I love when people stay in touch. Its so easy to loose contact with people. #friendsthroughtheyears
... The thing that makes me happy about Michael right now - I just envision him in Heaven with his dogs. We all are such animal loving people... & while I know Michael is happy to see his dad & other family members, something about seeing him in my mind loving on his dogs? Just makes my heart smile. #alldogsgotoheaven
... I hate alcohol. I don't drink.... never have. But especially now, when I hear people talking about drinking, I just cringe. #dontdrink #yourliverwillthankyou
... While I don't understand addiction to alcohol, I do believe we all have our own addictions in some shape or form. #dontjudgeanyone
... I wish I could ease the pain for Ricky. To see him so sad just breaks my heart even more. #abrotherslove
... Michael had wanted me to bring my camera up on Wednesday to take pictures of everyone together... makes me so sad I didn't do it earlier. I would have but you just don't think people want a picture of them when they are sick. Now I'm beating myself up for not doing it anyways. #pictureslastforever #notexpectingtoleavesoquick
... I wanted to take my camera to the funeral home - not to take pictures of Michael, but to take pictures of family & friends all in one place... & not to capture sadness but to capture the smiles & hugs. Ricky said it would be weird so I didn't take my camera. I can't help it. I always want to document life. #photographersheart
... My parents & my stepdaughter sent the most beautiful flower arrangements that are so large, just the 2 of them take up my whole table in the foyer. I can't even begin to tell you the smell when you walk in my house. #myhouseisaflorist
... I think one of the flower arrangements, one of the plants can be planted outside. I need to read up on it. I'm clueless when it comes to all things flowered & planted. #Ihavenogreenthumb
... I'm keeping all these flowers away from Harvey Dent. #dogwilleatanything
... Not one person at my job has mentioned Michael's passing to me. I've been at my job for 23 years... tells you a lot about the people I work with. #dontgetinvolved
... My sweet friend lost her dad just hours before Michael passed away.... his funeral was the same day as Michael's... so I didn't get to go hug my friend & her family in their loss. #justbadtiming
... Ricky's oldest sister, Pam... her father in law passed away on Monday. #somuchloss
... It always happens that death comes in 3's.... it was my friend's dad, then Michael & now Pam's dad-in-law. How does that always seem to happen? Is it just an old wives tales & we just notice it like that? I don't get it.... #soweird
... I feel like I'm full of nothing but bad news lately. #debbiedowner
... I know things will get better soon.... life goes on... hearts heal even though they still ache with loss. #joycomesinthemorning
Don't forget - tomorrow is the link up for Thankful Thursday
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| Linking up today with Genuinely Lauren |
Sending cyber hugs and prayers your way.
ReplyDeleteI know the feeling. It feels like every time I turn around something else bad is happening to a friend or family member. It almost makes me want to turn off my phone and refuse to see or talk to anyone because of what I may hear happened next.
ReplyDeleteBut God has a plan and is in control. And I've decided I trust Him and will keep on trusting Him.
Praying for you and your family.
(((HUGS))) xo
ReplyDeleteMy heart has been hurting for you as you walk through this time, but when I read that not one person at your work said anything to you, it just took that sadness to a new level. How hard is it to give someone a hug or just pop your head in and say you are sorry for their loss. I'm so sorry for their insensitivity.
ReplyDeleteI was okay until I read the verse at the end. What a wonderful reminder in Psalms: Joy always returns - even in our darkest times.
ReplyDeleteContinuing to lift you and your family up in prayers.
It makes me SO SAD that NO ONE at your work said ANYTHING!!!!! What in the world my friend?! It saddens me greatly.
ReplyDeleteDo you know what kind of flower it is? Maybe I can help you to know if it can be planted else where =)
I love you my sweet, sweet friend. Joy indeed, comes in the morning.
Hugs ~~ dawn
Hoping to not be cliche - but this too shall pass dear! xo, Biana - BlovedBoston
ReplyDeleteJoy DOES come in the morning ... even though the morning seems so far away sometimes. Praying for you all.
ReplyDeleteI can't believe no one at your work has said anything! That's terrible. And yes, it does seem like deaths always happen in 3's, so strange. Oh Harvey Dent, at least he has to put a smile on your face :)
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for everything you've been through Rebecca :-(
ReplyDeleteI'm keeping you and your family in my prayers <3
I'm so sorry for everything you've been through Rebecca :-(
ReplyDeleteI'm keeping you and your family in my prayers <3
I can't believe no one at your office mentioned anything at all. Do people just not care anymore? Hope this week has been easier.
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