Yes, I'm still in pain.... but making it through. Just trying to tell myself that its going to get better. Because it is, right? It's just gotta.
Just a quick update.... I did go to the doctor to look at the spot that hurt to see if its an abscess. Of course, I know they can't really TELL unless its about ready to rupture - but the doctor did not think it was an abscess - but she gave me antibiotics just in case to try & steer it off. - which I think is weird, because abscesses dont go away fully with antibiotics. They only go away if they are drained.
Yes, I am an abscess pro & savant. Thanks 2018.
I did take the antibiotics - which made me sicker than a dog (just what I wanted to deal with) - & the pain is still there.
So I'm just trying to ignore it - & live with it - & wait to see if it blows into something bigger or if it goes away. Heck, I'm used to this sort of living. It's what I've been doing since April. I was just hoping the surgery would be the end of it. Guess life had other things in mind..... but I keep PRESSING ON. All you can do, right?
I do go back to the doctor on the 26th for another check up to see how the incision is healing & how this spot looks... so we'll see.
Moving onto the thankfulness! - because there has been a lot the past 2 weeks.
I always say, in the worst of times, there's always something to be thankful for - & I've definitely had blessings poured over me..... so let's just check some out
Clear colonoscopyI am just so glad that was something I didnt have to worry about. No polyps, nothing to give any worries about. WHEW!!!!
For Ricky to take off for my surgery & the day after, he wasn't able to drive me to my colonoscopy. My brother stepped in & was able to take me & even offered to stay to take me home (Ricky was able to leave work early to get me home) - but I am so thankful my brother, who has so much on his plate already, took the time to make sure I was taken care of. Stepping up to the big brother duties, even after all these years.
Clear mammogram & PAP
I had all that taken care of a few days before my colonoscopy just to make sure everything was OK - especially because they found a spot in my breast 2 years ago & they keep an eye on it - but everything came back good on both!!! I dont even have to go back for the 6 month check up on my breast but can wait a year. That's such a fresh breath of relief.
Still so glad they were able to do the full procedure & not do the seton with another surgery down the road.
OK... I just wanted to cry. I think I may have actually. The day after my surgery - we get 2 packages on our front porch. The PRECIOUS - ADORABLE - THOUGHTFUL - SWEET - CARING Audrey Louise had sent me 2 boxes. One from Amazon Pantry - full of snacks & treats & a case of vegetarian soup! Ricky was digging in immediately in the snacks. ... & not only did she think of me & the hubs, but my fur babies. She had sent them a box of treats & toys & bones to chew on.... I'm telling you - I have never been so speechless. I never have thought about sending Amazon Pantry packages to someone who is stuck in the house for awhile - but what a genius idea!!!!! Thank you so much Audrey!!! I just want to hug her so tight, it takes her breath away. She's truly an angel! The joy of the Lord shines through this one y'all!!!
|I would have taken a picture of my Amazon Pantry box - but Ricky dove into it faster than I could get a pic|
Mug & love
My sister in Christ, Kelly - she just has the most giving spirit to her. She had her daughter drop me off a bag & I was so excited when I saw another Starbucks mug in there - from Maine - where she just returned. The collection still grows!!! But not only was there a mug, but some homemade banana bread - which I basically devoured myself & then a gift card to the grocery. Y'all - I realize over & over again that I just dont have the mind to think of these things. How USEFUL was that! Especially when I can order groceries from the bed & just have Ricky pick them up in the Click-List way? Thank you Kelly for keeping us fed during my down time!!!! I LOVE YOU!
My girls... they are just the most precious thing to me. On surgery day, they each text me scripture of encouragement & reminders to NOT FEAR. I read them over & over again until they took me back to surgery. & then they sent me a basket full of things to keep me comfortable while I was home. My favorite thing in the basket? They got a journal & they each wrote a note to me in the front pages of it. This journal is going to be one of my prized possessions! ... I am so thankful for Rachel - my partner - who drove the basket out & is just loving on the girls so well while I've been out. I just miss them all so much & cant wait to hug all these sweet girls!!!
Our Nashville gang surprised me with a delivery too - all the snacks!!! All the HEALTHY snacks! It was funny because our door bell rang on a Sunday & Ricky was shocked they delivered it on a Sunday - but what a fun surprise that was! & so thoughtful. I just love my Nashville gang. My belly really loved them too :)
OK - are you sick of hearing it yet? How much I love my job? ... I am just blown away how amazing my coworkers & work is. They had sent me flowers & I got so many cards from coworkers with the kindest words of encouragement & well wishes. I am so blessed to be surrounded by incredible people.
|This pic doesnt show the beautiful white huge flowers in it - but I was looking at the ribbon when I took this|
... & also on pain pills :)
ALL THE CARDS!!!!!
Every night - every single night - Ricky would bring the mail in & I would get a card from someone - sending me well wishes, prayers, encouragement. It just truly lifted my spirits like nothing ever before. I AM SO BLESSED!!!!.... & then a few Starbucks card came by way & I just know you all get me :) haha.... I cant wait to make the trips back to Starbucks. Has anyone checked? Is their stock dropping with me being out of commission? HAHA ... Thank you so much Jen & Tanya!!!! ... & thank you to EVERYONE who sent me the cards. I have saved them all & just read them over & over again.
Able to make the funeral
So this is so heart breaking.... but I am thankful for it. Some of you may have seen, that one of our friends passed away last week. Totally unexpected. She had a heart attack. Gone - at the age of 49. I just can't believe it. She was in my wedding - & I was her matron of honor. She actually was standing next to me when Ricky proposed to me. Me, Ricky, Tammy & her husband Tony - we spent so many years doing everything together. The holidays, vacation, phone calls every night. We were so close. Time takes its toll & we didnt stay as close when Ricky & I moved to Indiana - but Ricky always stayed in touch with Tony (they've been close friends for so long - they were each others best men at both weddings too) ....& now, Tammy is gone. I just can't believe it. I still hear her voice in my head. Keep seeing all the fun times together. ... but her funeral was Tuesday & I am just glad that I am off work so I was able to attend. It was the first time I put on make up or even got dressed in something other than sweats in the past 2 weeks. & it was tough. But I am so glad I was able to be there. Just to hug Tony & her sweet kids. Please pray for them. Her kids are in their 20's.... I told Ricky that I'm still devastated at loosing my daddy - but I see I had 46 years with him - & here's these 2 kids who only had their momma for such a short time. Heart breaking.
I honestly dont know what I would have done the past 2 weeks without him. Heck, I dont know what I'd do with every day without him - but to have him take care of me the past 2 weeks has been just indescribable. I cant even wrap into words all he has done... but I am just thankful this is the man I married. The one who took the vows, "in sickness & health - for better & worse - for richer & poorer" & has really applied them. & probably my favorite thing of all - every morning before he'd leave for work, he'd come in & kiss my forehead since I didnt have to get up. Truly, my Prince Charming.
What are you Thankful for this week as we head into the holidays?
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