It feels like yesterday... but it also feels so long.
The amount of time for training for a half marathon.
We are coming into the final week. Race week. The week that is full of excitement, anticipation, & for me, lots of doubts & questions.
|Week 15 training|
I know everyone is probably sick of all the training posts, or updates, or more importantly, the complaining about my knee. I'm pretty sick of it myself. It is what it is. Real life of a 44 yr old with bad knees training for a half marathon.
I will say, all in all, I've been really thrilled with how my training has went. My running has felt better with the shredded weight of 39 lbs - & my injuries were really minimal, even if it doesn't seem like it. Yes, I had aches & pains but like I've said on here a thousand times before, I'll never know what its like to run with good knees. Its just my life. I'm OK with that. I won't let it stop me completely. It may slow me down - but it won't stop me.
It was just 3 weeks ago though where I really REALLY hurt my knee. The ironic part - it wasn't even due to running.
You may remember the post I did where I talked about how bad my knee hurt grocery shopping & Ricky had to help me. That's where I did something to my knee. Walking. In a grocery store. The medial meniscus. You can sprain or break them pretty easily in life with just moving. Twisting. Turning. Just doing your own thing.
& nope, it wasn't running 10 miles up & down hills... it was grabbing a grocery cart.
Welcome to my life.
That makes me so angry. To think my training has went so well & now, I'm in this much pain with my knee, right at the time of the race because of a weird turn.
I think its the anger that is going to get me to the start line. Just call me The Hulk.
|Or call me She Hulk|
I know a lot of people don't get it.
The whole idea of pushing myself in this & possibly aggravating things more. ... but I also know a lot of people will totally understand it. Most runners will get it ... & appreciate the feeling having felt it before themselves.
& in all honesty, I'm trying to be smart about it.
My plan on Saturday is to show up. Cross that start line... & see where it goes from there.
Any time goal I once had is REALLY out of the window now. I just want to finish... no matter how slow. If I have to scoot, I will...
& in saying that. I'm not going to be dumb. I'm really not. If I feel like its too much or my knee is getting worse (God forbid) I'll call it quits. Ricky is already aware to be ready to come get me at any point on the course.
I will feel so much better about the whole thing if I try... & maybe I will finish. Maybe I wont. But its better then sitting at home wondering if I could have made it.
I worked so hard to get to this point... how do I not even try?
I do plan on getting my knee KT Taped up AND I will be using a brace on it. I'm going to try & keep my knee from as much impact as possible. I want this knee to get me through many other races - I just need it to get me through this one right now.
A running buddy of mine always says that the 13.1 miles - or the 26.2 miles that some will run Saturday isn't about a race. It's a victory lap. All the days, weeks & months of training - all the time invested - the schedules changed - the food ate - the days you didn't feel like getting in miles - the days that were hard - the days that were fun.... it all gets summed up in one more run for this period in your life... & it all begins at the Start line. You get to do one last run to make it full circle.
I so love that.
I'm going to be heading into a new workout program next week which is more about weight lifting & sculpting this body now that I've shed 39 lbs (& hope to continue...25 more lbs to go!) & running won't be front & center like it is right now. So I want to do a victory lap to say I've made it through another training program. 16 weeks of testing myself.
& if that victory lap is the full 13.1 miles - WONDERFUL... if not, that's OK too.
It's MY Victory lap.
So here we are... the end of the adventure of training. Its always a learning experience - every time.
Learning what your body can do...
what your limits are...
the strength & endurance you can gain...
how you handle injuries...
where your strengths lie...
... I may not cross the finish line, but I'll be at the start.... & I'm going to try... & that to me?
I'll be proud of myself.
Wish me luck....
If you're up on Saturday morning at 7:30am - lift up a prayer for me please!!! I have told many a person that prayers are what is going to get me through to the finish line.
I'm going to show this video... start it at 2:11... the words are powerful... & speak exactly how I feel at this moment. It actually makes me tear up... but here I go
... running unapologetically
.. & one last thing!!!
lift up a prayer for our girl, Julie - who will be doing her own Half Marathon that same morning in Nashville at the Rock N Roll Half Marathon! She's gonna do amazing!!!