which by the way, Juan Pablo is just coming off to me as a creep lately. Those 'groans' he does when he talks to someone. "mmmm... nice" ... is it me? I just feel like he's a little fake. Like the show is so legit with everyone being who they really are - right?
Sorry - I got side tracked there...
But I just kept thinking of last week. We had to leave right after The Bachelor came on last Monday to go to the vet... & that's when we got the news of Sydney having bone cancer.
|Sydney loves the snow... cools her off with that thick coat of hair|
That night coming home was horrible. We got no sleep. We just sat up all night sort of numb. Me, doing the worst thing anyone could ever do - getting on the internet & looking things up...
|This is me.... completely|
The next day was full of tears. I literally cried all day long at work - couldn't stop it - couldn't control it.
& here we are a week later.
Its a different feel.
yes, the sadness & frustration with the 'why's?' are still there, the anger of stupid cancer... but we've gotten in a new schedule.
Sydney get's carried outside now - no more doggie door for her. She wouldn't be able to lift her good leg to get out the door - nor put her bad leg out to put her weight on it once it was out the other side...
We now have rugs literally from the kitchen door, all the way to the bedroom. Our house is upside down. No rugs that match, but a path that let's Sydney walk if she wants to limp her way from one room to the other without slipping on the linoleum or the hard wood.
New routines of medicine given to her when she eats & water given to her afterwards because the medicine makes her so thirsty.
And of course, extra hugs & kisses & love for our girl not knowing when things could get really bad... appreciating every day with her.
I was just thinking about it last night how life works... & it happens over & over.
We get news of something life changing - it could be anything. Fired from your job, an unexpected bill coming in the mail, news from the doctor about your health
... its things that make your life take a hard sharp turn.
Life is never a straight path, but we can tend to be able to handle 'curvy' - right?
But the turns...
That's where things change to a different direction. A road you never thought you'd go down.
But its funny because what happens? We adapt...
No matter what the situation is - we find a new way, new routines.
Doesn't mean that new road is easy, fun, or anything you'd choose or want to do again. But we're not in control of it. We just learn to adapt.
I truly believe its the support & prayers of family & friends... & of course, prayers for strength that help you adapt... get you through...
until the next sharp turn happens
The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed,
a stronghold in times of trouble.
Those who know your name will trust in you,
for you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you.