Ricky & I were talking the other day about my fear of heights.
I used to be scared to death of heights. But I've done better at facing my fears. Now, don't think I'm going to go on a tight rope any time soon, or jump out of an airplane for fun. But I have gone zip lining & I can stand & look over edges of really tall buildings. I also feel like I'm going to puke doing those things, but hey, I do it.
& I was thinking of some other things that scare me, terrifies me, give me the chills....
What scares me...
... Snakes. They freak me out so bad. I had a photo session this weekend & in the middle of the road, I saw something squiggly in the middle of the road. I started creeping up to it like an inch at a time. Come to find out, it was a shoe lace. I think my heart stopped the entire time I was sneaking up on it.
... Suffocating. The idea that I can't breath just ... takes my breath away. Like that? I'm so witty. But yeah - I need air. I am the person that is freezing cold & will get under covers & want to throw it over my head, which lasts 0.4 seconds. I NEED AIR! I've wrapped blankets all around me, making a hole for my nose to stick out.
DROWNING goes in this category as well. Just not being able to take a breath. No no no no no.... its a wonder I ever run. I'm basically breathless that whole time.
... Being accused of something I didn't do. Maybe its watching too many crime shows or movies, but I can remember being a little kid thinking it had to be the worst feeling ever to be accused of something you were truly innocent of & you were still blamed, or even sent to jail for. Tell me why a little kid worries about this? My brother must have blamed me a lot for things I didn't do.
... Airplanes. Yes. They terrify me. Every time. & yes, I have flown. & yes I will probably fly again some day (Disney World, I hear you calling me)... but I still am terrified. When we would fly to Texas to see family, as soon as we booked the tickets, I would start getting sick. Literally. & the closer it got? Let's just say Imodium was my best friend. It tears my nerves up. The idea of crashing? Oh sweet baby Jesus. & I get it - cars are more dangerous, but at least I think my seat belt has a chance of helping. A seat belt thousands of miles above the earth? Come on... really? That's going to save my life?
... Hurting someone's feelings. I freak out if I think I've hurt someone's feelings. I just can't stand that idea. "Feelings" are more to me then anything. You can punch me in the face & I'd take it better then you saying something on purpose to hurt me. So I feel like everyone is like that. So if I punch you in the face, know its so I don't hurt your feelings.
... Web MD. Sorry - its terrifying. Nothing good every comes from WebMD. I know I just heard an Amen out there.
... The idea of loosing family members. I just don't want to talk about it. I'll start crying & I don't even want to think about it.
I could get really deep into this topic now... but I think I'd just run home & put my nose out of my blanket & hide the rest of the day... so we'll leave it there...
What terrifies you?